I have never really talked about this. I have kept it hidden. Buried. Silently I struggled deep within myself, but no longer. No. The struggle is not over. I doubt it ever will be, but I can’t keep it hidden any longer, so here it is. I struggle with my self-image. I don’t think I am particularly attractive, I think my hair is weird, I think ears stick out too far, and I think my face is way too oily. Plenty of people have tried to tell me that these things are not true, but that does not change the fact that every time I look in the mirror that little voice in the back of my head points out my imperfections. Over time I have been able to quiet this voice some, but it is still there. I don’t think that there is anything I could write here that could completely fix issues with self-image, but I think I can give some advice that has helped me to quiet the voices telling me that I will never be good enough.
You are created in the image of God. Right great place to start, but who cares I’m still ugly. I think that starting here is terrible, yet this seems to be a starting place for many. Where I will start instead is by placing focus on something much more important. When was the last time that you heard about how good the disciples looked? Was Peter’s luscious locks a focus in the Bible, or was it their message? I can’t say for sure, but most of the disciples were working men and I’m not sure they were the best-looking bunch of dudes. They probably were not exactly the most cleanly group since they were constantly traveling, yet the focus was still on their message. This should be the same for us. While there is nothing wrong with trying to look nice and there is definitely nothing wrong with a shower every now and then, our appearance should not be our focus. Our focus should be on our message. What do we have to share with the world?
When I look in the mirror, I’ll be honest I don’t see a “Child of God” or any of the other clichés people use to describe themselves, I just see me. I still see all the imperfections, but I don’t let them bother me. God does not care what my hair is doing that day. He does not care that my face is breaking out yet again. His love is not dependent on the outfit I chose for the day. If we truly know God and commune with Him daily, we will have a different kind of beauty. Not the kind you get from a face scrub or a new outfit, but something that only comes from knowing Him. Psalm 24:4-5 explains this perfectly
I sought the Lord, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
People who are truly on fire for Jesus are beautiful in a different sense. They radiate a love that can come from nowhere else. This radiance and excitement is beautiful. It is radically different than the surroundings and it takes the focus away from an exterior image. This is where I take my comfort. While I may not be the most attractive, I am beautiful in a different way. I get to show others the beauty of God on a daily basis. People can see it in my smile. They can tell something is different by the way I talk. My excitement is unconventional, but it reflects what is inside. This excitement for life is attractive. People are drawn to it. This was why people flocked to Jesus and the disciples. It wasn’t the reason that people
flock to celebrities. They were not there because Jesus was super handsome. They were there because He had something no one else did. He had a radiant love that can only come from God. We can all have that and that is what has allowed me to shut down that little voice that points out my flaws. With God those flaws don’t matter. All that matters is His love.
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog! I hope that you learned something that will strengthen your walk with God. Let me know in the comments if there is something you want to see me write about and I will try to get to all of them. Have a great week!